It’s My Birthday

Yep…its my birthday. I am 36 today. I tell you this  to say that I am choosing to celebrate. birthday_cake_208014[1]

Texas weather has gifted me with a rare snow minus ice and it feels like a real gift. I want to build a snowman!

My precious kids fixed my breakfast this morning (pop tarts and coffee) and then fixed their own breakfasts. My son gave me card stating that he respected the way I love him. 7 year olds are adorable…and mischievous. My middle one created an original art work for my office…flamingoes forming a heart. My oldest kissed my cheek…even as her friends on the bus watched. They loved me well this morning.

My sweet husband left brightly colored gifts on the kitchen table this morning and is fixing a dinner feast to my specifications!

My phone and Facebook page have been filled with messages from friends all over the country, reminding me of a community beyond my backyard that carries Hope.

I celebrate that I am older. I celebrate that the smile lines are deeper around my mouth and eyes. My body is a year older, and shows some of that wear, but my heart is also a year wiser, a year more open. I have experienced new things this year. I took my first step off of American soil this year. I officially launched a 501c3. I confronted, and continue to confront,  my fear of fundraising. I ran a 5k–slowly, clumsily but I did it and continue to do it.

As I reflect on the last year and consider with gratitude the year ahead of me, I remember reading Henri Nouwen’s Here and Now. He talks about birthday celebrations as being holy events. It is the one day out a year that we celebrate the existence, the ‘being’, of a person rather than their accomplishments. Today, more than any other day, I will attempt to revel in the truth that I am God’s beloved.  I will honor this gift of life by being fully present to it today. I will choose to ignore the voices of perfectionism that push against my soul.

God knows me, God loves me, God delights in me.

That is a gift worth celebrating! Presents

Recent Posts

Outside the Village

It’s the parking spot we were sure we’d remember, then spent 15 minutes hunting for only to realize it was one aisle away the whole time. It’s a person we were looking intently for in the crowd only to find them less than ten feet away. When our senses are...

Before, During, and After Employment

“You have received instructions about [Mark]; if he comes to you, welcome him.”  Colossians 4:10    The Teammate Who Left A trained expositor, philosopher, and observer, Paul’s fingerprints can be found all over Christian history. For both good and ill, Paul’s...

Permission Granted

I set out to write this week about healthy exits from ministry.  I wanted to write about churches partnering with their ministers who were leaving to help them land softly at whatever was next.  I wanted to write about positive steps a (former) minister can take to...